Loves and Friends

I stand here looking at the moon, as faces pass before me...Michelle the lost love, taken from me before we had a chance to live our life togeather. Caesar the man who brought me into this world. Bridgett the women who always stood by his side. 

Fiona, my ruby the one light in my life. The one thing I worry about loosing the most. Everything else could be ripped away from me so long as I can look into those eyes and know that she'll be there. But I can be foolish and can loose her. 

Nails although I dont say it your a brother to me. A fellow Irishman. And the only one who would walk away from the women he loves for me..for her? Does it matter? If everyone only knew what hid behind that gruff exterior.  You care far more than you want the world to see. And it does you credit.  But why do you make the moves you do without talking to those who trust you the most...why dont you come to us and ask for the help you know you need?

Katie, my childe..my greatest triumph or biggest mistake? Ive seen what you could be..but what you are...is not what I need. And Im not sure if I can bring out what I need..what happened while I was away. Just a few short months...If things continue I'll have no choice but to do what I must.

The Old Katie

I dont know what happened. 

Shes changed..shes not the same little girl I raised and taught.  Should I have brought her with me from the begining. Was leaving her behind for a few months a mistake..should I have waited for a few months?

Was time that short?  Would the Prince still be willing to allow the embrace in March or April?  Its too late now whats done is done. I have to try and get My old Katie Scarlett back. But how.  

And now Fiona...my Ruby. Turning cold.  She knows how to push my buttons..she knows what I hate most..and what will push me over the top.  She can read me like a book,  and I love her..and theres nothing going to stop that.  I can deny her nothing. I know deep down shes doing what she thinks is best to help us all.  Still it hurts like an open wound. Worse than anything Victor could have done...that axe cutting into my chest was nothing compared to seeing her drive away with somone else

Im tired..Victor and Clara are dead.  They couldnt handle this city. They couldnt understand how we must all work togeather so that we can all survive.  Now I have to rebuild in my own Image...but how. How can I do this? Am I even prepaired? Or is this all too much? 

When it comes down to it...only time will tell.  

The Monster behind the Mask

I look at the glasses around me. How could I get this angry...again?!

No one can see this...Not this side of me. I cant let the beast control me like this. Theres too much at stake. Katie, Fiona. What would I do if I did anything to hurt them?

I know Embracing Katie hurt Fiona, and the heavens know I didnt mean it.  I love them both.  

Fiona my Ruby in the night..the one bit of color in the long darknesses that was my own mind.  A darknesses that lasted for almost a hundered years...and then there it was a light...shinning in the darknesses of Mourning Black. Now if I can only keep her...

Katie Ive been looking out for her since she was three...Shes always held promise. Now look at her a beauty stuck in time.  At least I gave her that..if nothing else.

And now I must look to the future..what comes next? Neither of them can be kept in danger...The time has come to let the dragon out.  I had hoped that here I wouldnt have to let him out...but I must. Theres too much at risk now to keep him in the cage Ive worked so hard to build...

But once hes truly unleashed can recage him..before someone I love gets hurt by him.